I know you've been burned, but every fire is a lesson learned.

there is no escape except sleep lately,
even then sometimes i sit up and stare vacantly around me,
just remembering, or trying to provoke wishful dreams,
there are all these things that i need to do,
to keep up with the world,
sometimes i wish i could just travel with the road, or watch the moon in the dark
for hours,
time has begun to mean nothing,
because time escapes us all at some point or another,
its the only thing we are racing against at most points in our life

I had forgotten what life is for me here in my hometown,
sometimes i wish i had stayed.
But then my double life co exists in Leicester, in university
there are actions i have taken there which have outlined me as individual,
here i have blended into a group of hopefuls at a quiz machine in a bar,
I continue to dream for my future,
its the only motive i have to get up really,
being hurt and lost by a string of on and off relationships,
it doesn't matter though does it, because time also heals us,
it helps us to forget
it does not help us to forgive though.
wish it did..

There is someone i can't get out of my head,
he lives in my dreams
cliche. Hope he's okay, hope he comes back safe.
zara
xx